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There’s A Little Hiccup

Most of my immediate family AND friends have expressed that I should really think about keeping my disability, and the insurance from it, instead of getting legally married.

I understand why. At the same time, I wish I could live a normal life like everybody does, and get married, get a job, have kids, and goto college. Unfortunately, I cannot do that for one reason, or another.

1. I’m not capable of having a full time job. Due to my illness, and everyone around me knows that. I know that, too. Perhaps I’m so wrapped up in the love aspect, and feelings, of my relationship, that I fail to see that. I know many reading this may think I seem intelligent, or smart. I am. Although, due to medications and living with a psychotic disorder, I am unable to hold a full time job.

2. It’s obvious. Anyone who knows disability inside and out, knows you lose everything taking on normality. Because, it means you’re capable. Which I am not FULLY. I’m getting there, but not there just yet.

So i’m taking heed to what everyone has expressed. I won’t get legally married probably, at all. At least, not yet.

And complications with my relationship with my mother, even if I do have any kind of ceremony, she will probably not go. Unfortunately!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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Not Everything Is So Shiny And Glossy

I’ve been talking a lot about all the good things that are happening to me. As I should be, because most everything is pretty great. 

Relationships AREN’T one hundred percent great, though. Please tell me you know that before I move on?!

The BF comes home after work and goes immediately to play his Xbox or PC games. That’s what it is. That is what’s bothering me. I’m spending less time with him, so he can play video games. You’d think that wouldn’t be bad, right, because he’s just at home doing his thing, not going to the club or anything? WRONG.

I feel somewhat neglected, I have to admit, and I hope nobody thinks i’m being childish about this. On one hand, it’s great he’s not out partying, at a club, or someplace where I don’t know where he is. Although, on the other hand, I feel it’s somewhat neglectful to me, and somewhat rude to the situation of two people looking to start a future together.

I’m slightly thinking ahead. Main thing is, I feel it’s somewhat neglectful. Another main thing is, I don’t know how to approach this situation. Other than to ask to spend more time together. In fact, I asked him today. His answer for today was, “Well, I sat down for a few minutes with you after work and relaxed”. A few minutes though? Compared to the 6pm to midnight gaming you do everyday?

Be the judge for yourself, I suppose. It has put me in a bit of a depression.

Thanks for reading, and until next time!

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