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Hypomania Or Depression

Not sure if hypomanic or just have a lot of ideas…

Yea, that’s pretty much what’s on my mind right now. I stayed up all day and part of the night searching for jobs. I barely slept. Then woke up at 3AM back to money making ideas.

This poses a problem.

I seem to have the flight of ideas similar to hypomania, but the energy of it is fading quickly. So yea, i’m not sure, but I have a lot of ideas. Of course, if there is a lack of energy, then there is no will to implement any of these ideas. And i’m back to square one. Wow! Couldn’t be worse!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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Update On Depressive Episode

Here I am, recovering from my depressive episode, thinking about how to be a better person, for everyone.

I’ve applied to 2 jobs, so let’s see how this goes.

I thought I had cracked the code to side gigs, but look at me. I haven’t totally. I’ve stuck my toes in, but i’m not completely there. Well, let’s say i’m up to my knee. Some things I just haven’t jumped into just yet, because, well that would be bad. I have to let it process a bit. Some things, a lot!

I’m on my way to seeing a psychologist. Sooner than later, but they haven’t contacted me yet.

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Met With A Job Counselor

I had an appointment with my job counselor yesterday, and we talked about everything going on with me. My low energy, my depression, and me not working the past three weeks.

He’s sending me to a psychologist so I can talk everything out. He also listened to me while I spoke about everything. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t want to embarrass myself. He’s just my job counselor.

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I also would like to spend more time with My Love, but he’s so into his video games and tv, it’s hard. Will talk more about that later.

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Depressive State

So I’ve just been kind of sitting here, in a depressive funk, for a couple of weeks. Not doing much of anything. And it’s getting to me.

I can’t but help think i’m taking on too much, but i’m not sure.

I took up 4 jobs and have since decided to quit one, possibly two. My area is also too small of a population for Instacart. So orders from Instacart are on the nil. One or two a day. A few a week. It’s not doing well.

I will probably stick with one job, if they don’t fire me from not working. 😔

I hate this. I seem to go from low to high. It’s just switching every 2-3 weeks. I guess that is the bipolar side of my Schizoaffective disorder.

And I need to explain that to My Love.

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Everything Is Looking Up

Yes, it is.

Everything is looking up so much for me. I’m looking towards booking a trip later in the year, Valentine’s Day is coming up, my book, etc. Oh I just could go on with the dozens of things going so well. It’s so exciting, and I feel like i’m actually living the dream that I’ve ALWAYS dreamed of.

It’s weird, because I always saw greatness in myself. I always saw potential, but either people told me to not dream too big, or do this or that, or even my own past getting me down. And I just couldn’t reconcile the fact that I felt something big was going to happen.

It’s also weird, because I felt like I had the key to something in this world. I was told time and time again, by mental health providers thats I was delusional and incompetent, I flowed with that, too! Can you believe that?! I almost consider my own self a joke for believing that.

But here I am. I’m here. It’s not a dream. It’s not a prank. I’m actually here. Excuse me while I live on cloud 9 for awhile!

Oh my. And the thing is, it’s only going to get better. I feel it. I sense it.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Small Update

I’ve had a better past two days. Still sleeping excessively, but i’m getting the rest that I need.

I’ve been promoting my book, and sharing it with others. It’s still a crapshoot, though. Not the best book. Only 9 pages. I’m hoping it helps someone, if anyone. I put a lot of thought into it.

Work is stressful. Book promoting is stressful. Taking care of a home that you share with your boyfriend is stressful. Marriage is another discussion, because, I am not married yet, and i’m dying to marry. Not so much have kids.

Another book is in the making, though!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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