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Update 2/18/2019

My Love has been sick with possibly pneumonia. We took him to the doctor. He has no insurance, so he didn’t get shots, but the doctor put him on 4 medications. We will see what happens. Even with GoodRx it was still 94 dollars! I paid it. His mom is supposed to pay me back.

So, i’ve been absent from a lot of social media. I haven’t got back to working, although, I applied to 3 jobs recently this past week. I’m so over delivery jobs, because I hate driving. I’m ready to work from home. We are so broke, it’s not even funny. I had to tell the pharmacist to use GoodRx and tell them we are low income.

It’s been a mess guys. I’ll be back soon!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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Update On Depressive Episode

Here I am, recovering from my depressive episode, thinking about how to be a better person, for everyone.

I’ve applied to 2 jobs, so let’s see how this goes.

I thought I had cracked the code to side gigs, but look at me. I haven’t totally. I’ve stuck my toes in, but i’m not completely there. Well, let’s say i’m up to my knee. Some things I just haven’t jumped into just yet, because, well that would be bad. I have to let it process a bit. Some things, a lot!

I’m on my way to seeing a psychologist. Sooner than later, but they haven’t contacted me yet.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Depressive State

So I’ve just been kind of sitting here, in a depressive funk, for a couple of weeks. Not doing much of anything. And it’s getting to me.

I can’t but help think i’m taking on too much, but i’m not sure.

I took up 4 jobs and have since decided to quit one, possibly two. My area is also too small of a population for Instacart. So orders from Instacart are on the nil. One or two a day. A few a week. It’s not doing well.

I will probably stick with one job, if they don’t fire me from not working. 😔

I hate this. I seem to go from low to high. It’s just switching every 2-3 weeks. I guess that is the bipolar side of my Schizoaffective disorder.

And I need to explain that to My Love.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Stressed, Tired, And Broke

I can’t help it. I’m burnt out from work, and everything else.

I cried last night. Well, I bawled my eyes out. I kept thinking of my Dad dying, and My Love leaving me. My Love said that won’t happen, “I’m not going anywhere”.

I’m so new here still, in this town, trying to make a life for myself. It’s hard. It’s just really hard.

And i’m stressed, tired, and broke.

This is so hard, ya’ll. Let me tell ya.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Redundancy

I was warned…

…about the redundancy of jobs. Having a job, period.

I had an episode last night. You could call it a psychotic episode if you want. I just got a little off track in my mind, and started talking about people following me. Something My Love has only seen a few times. So it was pretty embarrassing and hard for me. It started with a panic attack, and ended with paranoia about people.

How does that and a job tie in together? Well, I’m probably getting stressed out. I signed up for many jobs this past month. Probably 4. Along with writing my book and keeping up with this blog. So, that, on top of everything else I have to do like keep up house while My Love is at work, is very stressful for me. It’d be stressful on anyone, but add in someone like me who deals with mental health problems, and only has been able to function normally for about 4 years now.

*BREATHE*

Ok. So I’m not exactly taking a break. I’m not exactly gonna do much to handle this right now. Because I have not worked for almost 2 weeks now. I’ve been burnt out, and depressed.

With that said. I DID want to document this. I’m normal. I’m mentally ill. My Love tells me all the time, “Quit sitting in a dark room, in silence, on your phone all day”. He’s so right, and I need to stop, but I did that for almost 10 years while being sick. It’s a hard habit to break.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Another Day, Another Dollar, More Independence!

So I started a new job in my area. Yes, pretty much a third or fourth job. Something akin to Instacart and UberEats. I’m still working my own schedule, and making money on my own time.

I’m really enjoying this independence thing! My own apartment, my own job, my own money, and living with My Love. It’s wonderful. It’s a wonderful feeling to be able to say, “Hey, I’m dealing with a disability, but i’ve got a hold on it. I’m not going anywhere. I’ll never let it have power over me!”. It’s beautiful, it really is.

Glad to have a routine, too. Something I outlined in my book. Check it out sometime!

I’m thinking, maybe, a volume 2? Or a second edition? We will see.

Stay tuned to all the great things happening! Sometimes there is sadness, though, yes it happens! Enjoy the picture of me and My Love for now!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

So, That Book I Was Going To Write

I published it.

It’s more of a field guide for getting around your daily life. Short and to the point. 9 pages. With resources. More books to come IF I can do better than 9 pages, haha.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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