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New Medication (Geodon)

So I was recently prescribed the generic form of Geodon, ziprasidone.

First day I took it was kinda crazy. I felt nauseous for 30 minutes. Then I got dizzy and fell asleep for, maybe, 6 hours.

Did all that the second day, as well.

Today is the third day on geodon. I felt nauseous, again, but it was only for half the time. I’ve been up since 2am. I couldn’t sleep. I’m not sure if this is due to the geodon itself, or the fact that I slept for 2 days straight, pretty much. I checked my weight and I have seem to lost a couple of pounds. Very excited about that, and where that will go.

I will keep you guys informed. If anyone has any experience with geodon, comment below!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Fallout

I recently had a fallout with a best friend.

There’s two sides to every story, yes.

Her side was that I called too much. She said I needed to talk to someone everyday, and that she had a life, too, and couldn’t talk all the time.

I get it. I do. I called a lot. I always needed to talk to someone and she claimed she was my best friend so I always called her. She was my goto person when I was in need.

She has since unfriended me and said she was done.

I stuck by her when she was going through abusive relationships, her drinking and drugging, and episodes of BPD. I was always there, and never turned down her conversation, calls, or texts. Even when she called me at 3AM. She used to call me a lot. Ever since she moved in with her current boyfriend, she has a life now.

Idk. I was going through a lot last month and she told me she wasn’t working for about 3 weeks. I had tried calling and she never answered the phone.

No, but I get it. People make priority what is priority to them. I was priority until she got with her boyfriend. Even when I got my boyfriend, I kept calling her.

Moral of the story is: If you claim you are my best friend, and I put my all into you, I expect reciprocation.

I dont see how I’m in the wrong. Especially when she continually told me she was a shitty friend.

I’m gonna move on without her. Going to do my own thing.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

Food For Thought

Good morning!

I have something hard to admit. I’m back to smoking cigarettes again, sometimes. My Love got back on them, and then so did I. I’m sorry, guys.

With that aside, and off my chest, I want to start the day on a good note. I know I will probably become depressed by noon. I don’t know how I came up with that, but I always seem to be depressed by then.

I recently had a bit of a fallout with a friend. It was my last straw with them. I helped them numerous times over the past few years to deal with their BPD and relationship issues. Everytime they called or texted, I answered. Now with me having a rough past month, they’ve been on vacation and haven’t answered my calls or texts. I’m tired of giving my all to people who can’t give their all to me. If you can’t give your all to me, and I’M giving you my all…fuck it then. Ima let you go.

I wish people would interact with my blog more. I’m not sure how many people are completely seeing it, but I would love some feedback. About anything. Maybe what I should post more of, or if you have any questions about me.

You can follow me on Twitter, if you’d like: @TheRecoveryLife

Or on Instagram: @LifeLoveRecovery

I want to leave you guys with a semi-motivational quote:

“Memories are meant to serve you, not enslave you.” – someone

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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