Monthly Archives: April 2019

This Went Left

We can’t afford to live where we are living anymore, and it’s really putting me in the deep end, emotionally.

I’ve been very depressed, procrastinating, and letting everything fall to the wayside. This is hitting home way too much.

My Love and I may have to move back in with our parents (separately), after just recently getting engaged. We can’t afford a home, another apartment, or even the same apartment. We are spending $719 here, plus all bills separately from that. We can’t seem to make it on his income, plus my disability income.

We are lost and just looking for a miracle.

Please bear with me for the moment being.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

I’m Not Sure If I’m Ready

I apologize for not posting in awhile.

Let’s start off by saying, My Love and I are not sure if we can afford rent anymore. We are considering moving back into our parents house (separately). Maybe getting our finances in order, before moving back in together.

Definitely not my idea, and i’m very scared. It’s nothing against my father, or his house, so much as, all my memories there of me dealing with my schizoaffective, depression, and anxiety. And then, my ex. It would just be so backwards for me. I’ve been thinking about this a lot, everyday. I hope it doesnt come down to that.

We could make it if I got a part time job. I was doing Instacart and a few other jobs like that for awhile, but with this town being so small, it’s hard because no one orders. I was lucky if I was getting two orders a day.

I’m supposed to be starting college again soon, and i’m just so lost. I’m not sure if i’m ready. Especially with all this having to move back stuff in the back of my head.

Forgive me for not writing much, but everything is so stressful right now. And i’ve been drinking more. As well as, having panic attacks everyday. I think it’s the stress of having to go backwards when I just don’t want to. I fear going backwards is going to ramp up my symptoms and depression.

Thanks for reading! And until next time!m

Good Morning!

Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Morning!

I’m up and early, because My Love had to goto work at 4AM today. Definitely not something he likes! Normally I wouldn’t either, and I would usually be in bed til 10 or 11AM, but my schedule kind of revolves around his, so i’m up!

Took my ashwagandha today from a wonderful store called Restore Wellness RGV! I will take my B-12 shot later when I am about to work.

My Love is very grumpy when he doesn’t get enough sleep. Almost scary, haha.

What are things you do to make the day great?

This post is just to remind you to make your mornings great! It’s a fresh start to entering the world every 24 hours. Leave your mark. Plant a seed. Sow greatness. And reap impossibility!

Thanks for reading! And until next time!

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